Why I Haven’t Pursued a Ph.D. in Anthropology (And Project Updates for September 2026)

This morning someone asked me why I haven’t pursued a PhD in Anthropology because it’s clear that I’m very passionate about the field and dedicated to making it accessible to many people.

Given how so many people talk about academia these days, and how most other anthropology creators say they left academia to teach anthropology, or that higher education is falling apart, you might expect my answer to fall into one of those explanations. But it doesn’t. The academy isn’t perfect (far from it) and teaching in higher education these days can be incredibly maddening, largely because many students simply aren’t prepared, LLMs make cheating common, and the treatment of teachers is increasingly poor.

But none of those are my reasons, because I’m deeply passionate about anthropology and would love to pursue a doctorate. In fact, I strongly suspect anthropology is one of the most important fields of study in a 21st century, a century where humans are going through constant and rapid technological and culture change. Now more than ever, people are hungry to understand the very things they are going through and if there isn’t good and accessible explanations, they have plenty of conspiracy theorists and misinformation to turn to.

So my answer is not one couched in sincere critique (of which many are valid) or bitterness or disillusionment. My answer is simple. I’ve tried. I’ve put in 7 PhD applications since 2017. All have been rejected. This is not me complaining or bemoaning that rejection. I actually think there are several programs that would almost certainly take me if I applied to them, but the problem for me is financial.

Unfortunately, I can’t just apply to any place because my student loans are already outrageous and so I can only apply to places with funding and places that ideally would give me some kind of living stipend because I have children and they sort of like to eat things (ideally food). Those tend to be rather competitive and those are the only kind I can really apply for at the moment. I would absolutely love a chance to obtain my Doctorate, but at least for now, it’s not in the cards and now that I’m firmly middle aged, I recognize that my chances grow smaller with every passing year. I’ve accepted that I may never be able to pursue a PhD because the conditions of my life, just don’t make it possible.

But if you know me, you also know I don’t give up easily, that I’m stubbornly persistent, and so, I will keep trying.

In the meantime I’ve been asked to contribute another academic book chapter. This one is tentatively titled: Global Culture in Transition: A Collaborative Reimagining of the Future Through Speculative Fiction and Anthropological Worldbuilding and I am definitely enjoying writing it. The chapter will be my second academic book chapter, which will also increase the odds of my future applications.

Doing my YouTube shows, Anthropology in 10 or Less, Anthropology Through Science Fiction, and Ask an Anthropologist About Worldbuilding are also deepening my knowledge of the field. I jokingly told a friend the other day, considering how much background research and reading each of these things requires, each episode I do (the scripted variety specifically) is like taking a mini college course on each subject.

Project Updates:

First and foremost, tonight I’m giving a talk at The Social Study an organization where scholars and experts of a wide variety of topics give a talk in a bar or community organization. Tonight I will speaking at the Denver Press Club on Anthropology Through Science Fiction. If you’re too late in reading this, I am going to attempt to record the talk for later upload, but you never know how live events go (especially when you don’t have a camera person and you’re just recording a static shot).

In the next few days I will be wrapping up an episode on Structural Violence, The World Bank, The IMF, and How Water Privatization made access to water worse. This episode is longer than other 10 or Less episodes because the topic is way more complex. The episode is in the final stages of post production so its all down to titles and graphics now so look for it soon.

I’ve wrapped up a script for Anthropology Through Science Fiction Episode 2… only to find that one episode on AI would likely be 90 minutes to 2 hours in length, and so, I am in the process of chunking and revising the script so the episodes are a little closer to 15 to 20 minutes a piece. I’m also wrapping up the research on an episode on Sci-fi Horror. Ask An Anthropologists About Worldbuilding Has three episodes scheduled with a Mortician, A Paranormal Investigator, and an anthropologist who spent his career studying real magic and witchcraft across cultures. I’ve also tentatively booked a very famous expert on occult history, though I’m waiting for final confirmation before I say more. Resistance Reads also continues and I absolutely love reading books with my co-host Matt.

As for fiction projects, I had originally intended to launch Exegesis in August, but, after doing some further research on ecological systems, and multi-species ethnography, I realized I needed to make some significant changes to the most recent draft. I am hoping to have it out by the end of the year. I have also revised some of The Children of AEIS (Chronicles Book 5) and Through An Endless Darkness Gleaming (Shades and Shapes 2). My books tend to be rather research heavy, and that’s why it’s taking me so long… but let’s be honest, I just have a lot of things in the works. I’m also finishing up a novella right now that will be out for submission to major magazines at the end of the month about a Buddhist Monk who must find a way to stop an immortal cybernetic dictator. I have also have two other short stories that are already submitted to magazines and am waiting to hear back.

So the work continues, and, even without a Ph.D. I’m learning, I’m growing as person, I’m creating, and I’m imagining a better world. Regardless of what my external circumstances are, I will keep doing this thing that you reader, are following. And I am grateful that some of you continue to take some of your precious time and spend it engaging in the things I do.

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A Fragment from the Gospel of Draygon

The following is one of the rediscovered fragments from The Gospel of Draygon. Though lesser known than the famed Picatrix manuscript, the two documents share the same notoriety. Some scholars consider the Gospel of Draygon a composite of occult magic and arcane alchemical knowledge, while other believe it to be a hoax. Unlike the Picatrix however, we have only fragments and no complete volumes survives.

J.S. – 1981



When those left behind decayed and rotten,

By a bloodless beast, the shadow, the forgotten,

A blade you will need to cut through the darkest night

To set ablaze the forgotten and transcend its twilight


The cost to forge thine weapon is ancient indeed,

For tribes of old, would know how to succeed

And strike the blade from black glass forged in fire,

And etch the futhark in the hilt made of bone, blood, and desire


And whence from you find the materials to acquire?

In Yew is the wisdom, a sturdy root you desire.

Affix a bone from a broken thing, it’s essence made of fire,

Blood from thine own veins, will baptize thine hilt,

And the greatest of wills, removes all the guilt 


And to learn the language of the land,

A journey you must undergo to truly understand,

The need for great endurance and power

Even as knowledge and stillness will bring justice to flower.


Last of all, brings light to the blade,

To anoint, in the beasts own body, under the cursed glade,

Where things alive, pulse with malice,

And the creature hides in his smoking palace

There in the heart of the place, you must strike,

And draw the sap and soul from a place, dreamlike


This fragment appears as a chapter epigraphic in Through an Endless Darkness Gleaming (Shades & Shapes in the Dark Book 2)

Read: Shades and Shapes in the Dark for more

Tomorrow, The Shadow Wakes!!! (Shades & Shape in the Dark Arrives)

I’m so excited to announce, that tomorrow, my dark fantasy horror novel, Shades & Shapes in the Dark launches!

You can find Shades & Shapes in the Dark in paperback and ebook here!

The Audiobook is still finishing up production but will follow close behind in the next week or two. I will announce when that arrives.

To celebrate the release, me and several of my amazing author friends are gathering at Prodigy Coffee where we will be sharing some of our work. I’m so very fortunate to have such talented author friends. Check out their bios and links in the slides below!

If you’re in the Denver area tomorrow, you should join us from 1pm-3pm at Prodigy Coffee!

You can also check out the first and second chapters of Shades & Shapes in the Dark over on YouTube if you’re curious but aren’t sure if it’s for you.

Author Copies Have Arrived and Resistance Reads Episode 2 Goes Live May 4th

There really is nothing quite like holding something that you spent many hours on in your hands. Shades & Shapes in the Dark has arrived and I’m so excited. The cover, the formatting, the content all came out even better than I hoped. You can preorder the book from all your favorite stores https://books2read.com/u/4NEqGo

Not only that, this weekend our second episode of Resistance Reads goes live on May 4th at 10am Denver time. Matt Wellstrom and I will be discussing V for Vendetta. If you like this book, or have even seen the movie we’d love to answer your questions and engage in dialogue through our livestream comment section on YouTube.

A New Podcast and Preorder for Shades & Shapes in the Dark!

Hey everybody,

I have two pieces of news for you. The first is that the preorder for Shades & Shapes in the Dark has launched! You can preorder the ebook version from your favorite online store or you can preorder the paperback from Barnes & Noble at this link.

Want to get the book early and for free? I’m looking for 17 more Advanced Review Copy (ARC) readers. Basically, you let me know you want a copy by commenting below or shooting me an email and I’ll send you a copy in exchange for an honest review (yes even if you hate it).

The second piece of news is that me and my good friend Matt Wellstrom are launching a brand new podcast called, Resistance Reads. The podcast will explore the concepts of power and resistances through literature. Our inaugural episode will cover George Orwell’s classic novel 1984.

You can join us at the livestream here on April 19th at 11am MDT out of Denver. https://youtube.com/live/AqlLzQvCBBU?feature=share You can also watch the replay at the same link. Come join our discussion and ask your questions!

Book Release Party for Shades & Shapes in the Dark!

Thank you to everyone who contributed to the Indiegogo Campaign for my new dark fantasy horror novel, Shades &Shapes in the Dark! I am forever grateful and I will have your perks out to you as soon as humanly possible.

With the conclusion of the campaign, I’m happy to announce, that the book will hit the stores on May 17th 2025 in both paperback and ebook! You can join us over at Prodigy Coffee on the 17th at 1pm for the official release party where I will be reading and signing copies of Shades & Shapes in the Dark! I’ve also created an event over on Facebook if you are on that platform.

The audiobook is currently being recorded and though I have no doubt it will be completed by the 17th, the processing time for audiobook distribution seems to take an extra chunk of time.

A few other incredible writers will be sharing their amazing work in addition to a short reading of Shades & Shapes in the Dark. Including:

Cecily Stone

Marissa Forbes

Stant Litore

and

Jason Van Tatenhove

We look forward to seeing you on May 17th!

Shades & Shapes in the Dark Chapter 2 is Now on YouTube!

I just uploaded the second chapter of Shades & Shapes of the Dark on YouTube in an audiobook format. In the second chapter, a thief steals Clarissa’s skateboard and she chases him into the woods, only to stumble on something sinister. If you’re just seeing this, you can also listen to Chapter 1 on YouTube here.

There are only 12 days left for my Indiegogo Campaign to raise enough funds to pay for the final copy edit.

If you enjoyed the first two chapters of the book so far, definitely head over to Indiegogo and see how you can support it’s final creation. There are lots of perks for contributors! Help me make this book a reality!

Here it is, Chapter 2: The Meadow at the Edge of the World

Help Me Publish Shades & Shapes in the Dark

Paperback mock up of Shades and Shapes in the Dark
Paperback mock up of Shades and Shapes in the Dark

Only a few years ago, before the pandemic, I was able to successfully publish my books by getting a second job. But these days, I need a second job just to pay the bills. So I need your help to publish Shades & Shapes in the Dark.

I’ve just launched a crowdfunding campaign through Indiegogo, a website like Kickstarter where you can contribute to the campaign and get all kinds of perks. At the most basic level your name will be immortalized in the acknowledgements section of the book. But you can also get things like like signed copies of the book, coffee mugs, bookmarks, the audiobook edition and more.

Click here to check out the crowdfunding campaign

Do you want to know what you are backing? Well, here’s the link to my reading of Chapter 1 of Shades and Shapes in the Dark.

Shades & Shapes in the Dark Chapter 1 Audiobook (Listen Now)

I’m so very happy to release Chapter 1 of my dark fantasy, horror novel, Shades & Shapes in the Dark. You can listen to the audiobook edition of the first chapter over on YouTube at the video below. Chapter 1 is titled, The Crossroads of Life and Death.

Synopsis:

How do you fight a Shadow? How do you survive 40 years of darkness?

When 9 year old Clarissa Lamont stumbles upon something sinister in the forest, she didn’t know it was the beginning of a 40 year long nightmare strewn with the bodies of many she loved. In her journey to fight back, she will need to discover ancient hidden secrets of occult magic, and find others who understand her struggles. But the story begins where it ends, with her final confrontation with something as old as humanity itself. Shades & Shapes in the Dark is the first of four novels about Clarissa’s struggle to learn to harness her own power and magic, and fight a Shadow. Book 1 covers Clarissa’s very first encounter and battles with the creature she calls Demon.